Natalie Arianna Hodosy Brander

Natalie Arianna Hodosy Brander
December 18, 1999 to November 10, 2009

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Happy Dia de los Muertos

Those who know me know that I love Fall. I was born in the Fall, love the weather, the Santa Ana winds (the fires an unfortunate by-product!), the leaves falling, the colors, my allergies, Halloween, good fishing and ultimately Thanksgiving. This is Fall to me - the period from Labor Day until the day you get the itch to get your Christmas decorations out. I'm one of those people who likes to make Halloween scary, not cutesy. I know, I don't have little kids any more, but even when they were little, I'd dress in a black wig and be a witch. No Snow White costumes for this mom. What's wrong with a little celebration for the Dead? I actually do celebrate the dead. I have several people I think about each and every day who are no longer on this earth. So this Halloween, I created an altar instead of the usual happy faced pumpkin carvings. My intention is not to be macabre or morbid or even evil, it is simply to remember those no longer with us in the Mexican tradition. Mike insists that I turn the Madonna and Child photos on the altar candles (remnants of his Catholic upbringing gone bad) but for me it doesn't matter. Maybe my Dad, my grandma and Nana know that I'm raising a glass in their honor. I still have a bowl of candy, though. I couldn't get that crazy.

No Fear

Ojai is known for its Pink Moment when at Sunset the sky turns mauve and pink over the Topa Topa mountains. Even better than Sunset is watching the moon rise over the Valley, a truly breathtaking view. A full moon over the Valley is magic and is asbolutely my favorite view. One of these days I'm going to have a "Howl at the Moon Party". Its on my short list - golf is on the long list. As a child growing up on a large avocado ranch, I remember space, free time and privacy around me. Being able to get lost in the trees, finding a path overgrown by vines and creating a secret place where my sisters and I could play with our avocado leaf money and our water color make-up for an entire day and no one was worried. No people, lots of imagination, a trust in ourselves and a pace and innocence that most of us have forgotten. Fear is so alive in today's World. Our greatest challenge is to live a life without fear. To openly love. To openly accept love. To embrace life with intent and without reservation. No fear. Nike had it right.

Howl at the Moon

Howl at the Moon
No Fear

Dream House

Dream House
Not a Nightmare - I swear!

Dreams vs. Nightmares

I'm not saying I'm actually remorseful - that would sound spoiled. But I really am wondering what possessed Mike and I to give up an apartment in Carpinteria on the beach and a house in Ojai with a pool for a 2 acre piece of dirt with "Life Long Project" written all over it. Its easy - the answer is Dreams. You have to have them. What would we have done if we could only fish and kayak on the weekends instead of backhoe, plaster and paint? This will be OUR home with new memories and stories. Fishing can be for weekends. It isn't a nightmare...do I sound convincing?